Enjoy the Flight

Raising support feels a bit like flying standby.

Have you ever flown standby? Financially it is a massive blessing, but…it’s not for everyone. You have to be willing to be extremely flexible, a bit creative, and a splash of patience doesn’t hurt. I booked standby on 2 flights that had plenty of empty seats just 2 weeks before. The night before the flight, they were booked full. Oh shoot. I arrive at my first gate early, refreshing the tracking web page as paying passengers checked in, praying and being prayed for by family. 2 seats left…1seat…gone. I’m frantically searching for the best “plan B” as they make the final boarding call: “so and so, flight ### to Charlotte, last call…guess they’re not coming. Eleanor? You’re on”. Such beautiful words. Thank you, God! (Is it horrible to praise when someone else misses a flight, and the other person waiting for standby doesn’t get on?)

Phew. The hard one is over and I can relax – my next flight still has 12 empty seats. 2 hours later I dash to make my quick connecting flight. I make it on time, and just out of curiosity check how many seats are still open. 3. And 2 people are in front of me in the standby line. I’ll make it.

Up walks a captain – I’m outranked and bumped down and out. Noooo! Remember the frantic searching I mentioned earlier? Yep, that again. I hang around the gate as I search, and 10 minutes to take-off “Party of 4, last call…so-and-so party of 4…OK! They’re not coming. You’re all on.”

I know it’s not a perfect analogy. But the waiting, the wondering, the “plan A” making its way to “plan Q”. The praying, being prayed for, and updating on how it’s going. The realization that it’s completely out of my control. And there’s nothing to do but be thankful, breathe deep, and enjoy the flight.

Night Light

This week has felt dark. The flooding displacing thousands and thousands of people just north of Tokyo. The plight of thousands and thousands of refugees from Syria flooding into Europe in search of food, shelter, safety...home. The 14th anniversary of 9/11 plastered social media with images of smoke, debris, and falling bodies. And my Granddad passed away, and none of us got to say "goodbye".

I was reading Madeleine L'engle last night, and it was just the word I needed to hear:
    "...what do you do or say to your children when they're afraid to go to bed in the dark? There was a long and troubled silence. Finally one of the mothers who was a little braver than the others stuck out her neck: 'You give him a night light.' ...
     I'm afraid of the dark - not afraid to go up the stairs in the physical darkness of night, but afraid of the shadows of another kind of dark, the darkness of nothingness, of hate, of evil.
     So we rush around trying to light candles. Some are real: books, music, friendship. Others blow up in our faces, like too much alcohol and too many sleeping pills or hard drugs or sex where there isn't any love...
     St. John says the light shines in the darkness and the darkness does not understand it, and cannot extinguish is. This is the great cry of affirmation that is heard over and over in our imaginative literature, in all art. It is a light to lighten our darkness..."

And I remember to look to the Light. To be proud of my brothers and sisters in Christ in Japan who are praying for and physically helping those hurt by the floods. Inspired by people all over the world crying for justice - for mercy - and taking action to help Syrian refugees. Encouraged by those who never forget 9/11...but also push on and focus on 9/12: on new beginnings. Comforted that my Granddad died peacefully in his sleep at the ripe old age of 89, and a chance to gather with family and remembering him, his laugh, and how he hated to wait.

And I walk a little lighter, and cling a little tighter to our night Light.

Look!!!

 There are so many beautiful things from my brief weeks in Japan I'd love to share with you. Familiar neighborhoods, smiling faces of friends old and new (that I didn't take enough pictures of), tasty food, churches growing/multiplying, dreaming about the future with artists and pastors... 

look at this little canal I walk past almost every day, full of beauty and peace on a rainy afternoon.

The splendor of the skyline from a friend's apartment. The beautiful blues, the energy of the city, the faces and stories of God at work that spring to mind at the glimpse of a familiar building.

Look at the way it lights up at night, a different kind of twinkling sky, that reminds me of God's light shining out, His care for each individual in each apartment, in each office.

Look at this little guy, the delighted urgency and earnestness in his face as he proclaims "あった!!!" (2-year-old-Japanese that loosely translates "look what's here, look what I found!!!")

[*An ant? A leaf? A plane? One must point to it and repetitively proclaim its existence to the nearest family member or friend until said item is no longer in sight.]

I've been savoring lots of things as I've enjoyed the opportunity to be back in Japan this month, and God's reminding me to follow this little guy's example in sharing the beauty. Look! Look what I've found! This is amazing, and beautiful, and I'd love it if you would pause and appreciate it together with me.

Beauty just isn't the same alone. In community we savor together. We point out the wonderful things, the lovely, the true. The new things we might miss, the familiar things we might pass by on our own.

And I'm starting to understand how this is about far more than pictures from a faraway land. It is one of the vital, delightful tasks of every artist...and every Christian. An important part of how we worship the most Beautiful One of all.

A recurring theme: All Clean

It doesn't take long in Japan to notice cleanliness is quite important. The streets are clean, the subways are clean, no shoes in the house, epic baths...it's fabulous. Clean.

As I strolled around my old neighborhood soaking up the familiar back-streets, checking out new construction projects, and attempting to show jet-lag who's boss, I noticed a new addition to the local Shinto shrine: smiling old ladies carefully doing a choreographed walk through and around this large ring of grass.

I learned this week is a special week for half-way-through-the-year purification: for health, good luck, and to wipe away any misdeeds from the past 6 months. To get clean.

I hear a friend practicing organ as I write this, composing. As musicians we work hard to get notes in their places. We want it to communicate well, we want to tell a story. Even in a "messy" story, we usually want the chords and melodic lines precise. Clean.

I spent this morning with a missionary friend/mentor, chatting and catching up on a year of life as we wiped the ash and soot from the recent volcanic eruption (miles away) from her apartment windows. Ahhh, clean. And we talked about complicated relationships and brokenness and sin in both our eastern and western "homes", and we looked forward to the perfect "clean" of our true but-not-quite-yet Home.

When I'm in the US, people often ask about religions, "felt needs", and values in Japan. So... this one's for you! This is one of those shrines, and one of the deepest desires: to be clean, inside and out.

Beloved, we are God's children now, and what we will be has not yet appeared; but we know that when he appears we shall be like him, because we shall see him as he is. And everyone who thus hopes in him purifies himself as he is pure. 
(1 John 3:2-3)

Power in a Name

 In honor of Father's Day, inspired by my Dad
(the human one, and the Heavenly One)

“Are you kin to Dr. Honea? He is the best surgeon…”, “He fixed my mom’s… my daughter’s…So when I needed my (insert-gross-mental-image-procedure-here) I wouldn’t see anyone else!”, “...I love your Dad!”

Such is the life when your Dad is the most experienced surgeon in a small town (and it helps when your last name is an extremely unusual one). I got the polite smile-and-nod down pat by my preteens. There were times when I was proud. Times when I got tired of saying into the phone “Sorry, this is his home, not his office…I’m sure the other surgeon is wonderful too…” Times when I just wanted to be seen as myself, not as another Honea. Times when I loved my Dad who came to my soccer games and clarinet performances (regardless of the lives he saved during the 14 straight hours he worked before he got there, right on time).

My Dad’s reputation affected (when I’m back in my hometown, still affects!) the way people viewed me, what they think of when they see me, what kind of person they assume I am. There is power in a name. And my Dad taught me, with a twinkle of humor in his eye, to be proud of that name.

But when I leave my hometown and go down to Mississippi, no one knows my Dad and very few have heard the name “Honea” before. When they meet me, instead of assuming things about me, they asked questions like “Sorry, how do you pronounce your last name?” and, “I’ve never heard it before: what’s the country of origin?”

It reminds me of how we as Christians carry the name of Christ, the name of God. For better or for worse, consciously or subconsciously, people hear this “family” name and confer to us all the associations and assumptions it brings to their mind. Similarly, our words and actions can, for better or for worse, surprise, detract, or add to these associations.

Being a Christian in Japan is a bit like being a Honea in Mississippi. In Japan, it seems peoples’ automatic thoughts when they hear “Christian” are not necessarily negative – they’re just blank. I welcome questions, curiosity, and even wariness is understandable. I just hope someday…they get to meet my Heavenly Dad for themselves. Because like my human Dad, He really is the best, He heals like nobody’s business, and I love Him like crazy.

For now, I try to remember I might be the first impression some people get of our family Name, try to describe our Dad and our family I love. And I hope to get to make a few introductions. 

What Does CAT Do All Day?

CAT Magazine: A picture book of everyday life and activities during my time with Community Arts Tokyo so far (2012 - 2014). What does it look like to support church-planting through the arts in Japan? Here are a few snapshots!

As I raise support I've enjoyed showing this simple book of pictures (including faces of many people I love!) to old and new friends around the US. People keep suggesting I make a digital copy others can view and share, so I'm finally taking their advice and giving it a try. Click the link above and let me know what you think!

Fear and Faith (and also a wasp)

Bzzz. Bzzz. Bzzzzzzzzz. 

I get in the car, pull onto the highway, and glance back to see a big black wasp in the rear view mirror. After recovering from my mild heart attack I roll down the windows but mr. wasp is angrily stuck by the rear window. I’m currently going through a workbook on stress, so I take a deep breath and pray a prayer of praise that God controls all things, even insects, and sincerely pray that this particular insect pleeeeease not come up here and sting me. I inwardly congratulate myself for my excellent handling of this stressful circumstance. I no longer see a wasp in the rear-view mirror so I happily roll up the windows.

And 3. 2. 1. BZZZZ accompanies the speedily approaching image of an angry black wasp in the mirror, and my fingers slam down the buttons to roll down the windows, the light breeze whisking our little friend out the window (for real this time, I think). I nervously laugh at myself and begin to pray for the friend I’m driving to meet, but I keep hearing a phantom buzz from the wind, imagining creepy wasp legs when my hair tickles my neck, and I feel my stomach tighten.

This is not the first wasp I’ve seen today. Just hours before, I was eating lunch with family when we noticed a wasp in the room. I casually grabbed our plates of food out of the way as my Dad grabbed a spray can and fly-swatter, and we continued our conversation as he disposed of the intruder. I mentioned to him a second wasp was on the other side of the room, and he got rid of that one as well. My pulse didn't rise, my shoulders didn't tighten, I didn't think about them again.

The same circumstance: an encounter with a wasp. But a completely different stress level. When my Dad was in the room I was confident there was someone with me who had control of the situation, so I didn't worry at all about the pesky bug. In the car I was alone, trapped with this DEADLY FOE.

Interesting isn't it, how perspective changes a similar scenario? Small or large, health or finances, what other things stress us out? Perhaps, do we sometimes forget there is One who has complete control? And thank you, Jesus – our Heavenly Daddy is always in the room.